Resolution 2012
I don't really have a resolution, I said late Sunday afternoon in a round robin of 2012 do's and do not's. I mean, I resolute all year long, I said with a teeny tiny better-than-thou. Still on course to lose the remaining 2.5 of my 5 pounds, consciously aware of saying "yes" as opposed to "yeah," taking a few moments to switch into solution rather than complaining in the face of frustration and a religious sunscreen devotee, I'm a walking, talking advertisement for self-improvement. What else can I possibly improve?
Sure there are areas around my outer butt that, however loved and worshiped by my ex-boyfriend, I could once and for all tone to perfection. And I could resolve not to wear black stretchy pants on my days off. I could organize my financial goals with a bit more structure... But I'm a creative purchaser. Without some impulsivity, I'm robbing myself of the simple joy of being me. None of these areas are even forgotten about enough to constitute an actual resolution. Still, I believe in New Year's resolutions. I believe that we are constantly reinventing ourselves, reinspiring ourselves, and revamping the methods by which we achieve our goals.
Now it's a week into 2012, and I have yet to declare my intention. My mom is calling her resolutions "intentions." She is practicing being light and free or something like that. She encouraged me to practice being light and free. I'm always burning the candle at both ends, she says. But light and free sounds horrible to me. I mean, what would anyone write about, create, report if the world was all light and free. Light and free will not be me. So who will I be in the new year? Who will I be to other people?
Or who will I be for other people?
After a few minutes of rare intentional thinking, I decided that in 2012, I will be an all-around better person for other people. I do enough self-absorbed self-analysis - recounting my relationships, detailing my dates, agonizing over the eggs in all my different baskets - that sometimes I forget to take my head out of the sand. Rather than focusing my resolution on my eternal quest to improve moi, this year might I focus on who I can be for everyone else in their journeys? I have the potential to be an instrument of motivation to A. LOT. of people. My strengths lie in winning others over, creating ideas and motivating to action. My assistant manager recently reminded me that we should use strengths rather than endlessly obsessing over our areas of opportunity. Because our strengths we actually already possess. Duh.
Alas, Resolution 2012: I intend to check in with my friends and family. Actually support them. Use my strengths to motivate and help them achieve their goals. And boost their spirits by letting them know that yes, I realize there are other people on the planet besides 5'3 me, and I appreciate them. Immensely.
Emma Dinzebach
Sure there are areas around my outer butt that, however loved and worshiped by my ex-boyfriend, I could once and for all tone to perfection. And I could resolve not to wear black stretchy pants on my days off. I could organize my financial goals with a bit more structure... But I'm a creative purchaser. Without some impulsivity, I'm robbing myself of the simple joy of being me. None of these areas are even forgotten about enough to constitute an actual resolution. Still, I believe in New Year's resolutions. I believe that we are constantly reinventing ourselves, reinspiring ourselves, and revamping the methods by which we achieve our goals.
Now it's a week into 2012, and I have yet to declare my intention. My mom is calling her resolutions "intentions." She is practicing being light and free or something like that. She encouraged me to practice being light and free. I'm always burning the candle at both ends, she says. But light and free sounds horrible to me. I mean, what would anyone write about, create, report if the world was all light and free. Light and free will not be me. So who will I be in the new year? Who will I be to other people?
Or who will I be for other people?
After a few minutes of rare intentional thinking, I decided that in 2012, I will be an all-around better person for other people. I do enough self-absorbed self-analysis - recounting my relationships, detailing my dates, agonizing over the eggs in all my different baskets - that sometimes I forget to take my head out of the sand. Rather than focusing my resolution on my eternal quest to improve moi, this year might I focus on who I can be for everyone else in their journeys? I have the potential to be an instrument of motivation to A. LOT. of people. My strengths lie in winning others over, creating ideas and motivating to action. My assistant manager recently reminded me that we should use strengths rather than endlessly obsessing over our areas of opportunity. Because our strengths we actually already possess. Duh.
Alas, Resolution 2012: I intend to check in with my friends and family. Actually support them. Use my strengths to motivate and help them achieve their goals. And boost their spirits by letting them know that yes, I realize there are other people on the planet besides 5'3 me, and I appreciate them. Immensely.
Posted by Emma Dinzebach at 1/7/2012 2:34 PM 
Categories: What I Think Now
Tags: Emma Dinzebach Emma Dilemma 2012 New Year's Resolution Goals
Categories: What I Think Now
Tags: Emma Dinzebach Emma Dilemma 2012 New Year's Resolution Goals
Hmm...I do have many "intentions" for this year, rather than "resolutions". I guess I just want to build on what I have been doing for the past year. Great blog though about taking one's head out of the sand. I need to do the same myself. I can be rather self-absorbed; I just keep it to myself so no one really knows until I have to ask them to repeat what they just said! I'm too busy delving into my own thoughts to listen. I will "intend" do work on that! :)
Reply to this